What do you do in the in-between spaces……between who you have been…..and who you are becoming? Between clarity and the unknown? The Buddhist call it “bardo”. It is the rich, deep place of pure possibility. The creative soil from which all things are born. Literally, the place a soul hangs out after death and before the next life starts. How one experiences it is completely up to them. Our ego is not comfortable here. The ego likes “to know”. The soul already knows.
I believe if we really pay attention, we get an opportunity to hang out here in our lifetime over and over. If we allow it to be an opportunity for re-birth, it allows us a newness and freshness to come into our lives……a new possibility. If we allow the ego to run the show, we can move deeper into fear and self-doubt.
This is the place I work with women in…..the place of unknowing. I hope to always lead them into the quiet stillness so their souls can be heard more clearly. This is the place their God lives……quietly whispering about what’s next for them and reminding them of who
they truly are.
One of these women I worked with in a Goddess Circle for over a year, Laura Moore, pictured above, is in the hospital right now. She lays in Bardo. I feel she is deciding if she
is ready to come back to us or not.
I just found out yesterday as I stepped into The Bag Lady. She had gone into the hospital with acute abdominal pain on Monday and they took her into emergency surgery. She has had 2 surgeries now and is scheduled for a 3rd. today. She has lost a lot of blood.
We saw her Saturday and she was healthy, vibrant and laughing. Nothing was “wrong” at that moment. She actually is the happiest I have ever seen her since meeting over 2 yrs. ago.
As soon as I heard, after posting on every facebook page I could think of, I called the other 3 women in our circle and we immediately gathered in prayer circle together. We focused healing light pulsating throughout her body. We sent love to her family sitting there with her…..to the doctors and nurses. She was surrounded by love and light. Mother Mary was at her head, sending Divine Golden light throughout her body. Jesus the Christ was radiating green, healing light throughout her heart. Mary Magdalene was healing her 1st. and 2nd. chakras, where the “problem lies” with red and orange, creative, healing light.
They are a powerful trinity.
It was a most powerful time as we gathered together. It felt strong and real. We were helping to her heal, I feel. I felt it throughout my body. I feel a deeper level of faith in distance healing, and healing in general, then I ever have before. We felt her there with us.
She was laughing and joking about how she’s hanging out in bardo, deciding what she is going to do next. We spoke to her, laughed with her, told her that whatever she decides,
we support her decision.
It was the most bizarre feeling……to be the human that loves Laura and wants her back…..wants her to heal……and feeling on a deep, intuitive level, that her soul will decide and she will be happy either way. It is only us back her on earth that battle with the loss.
It is her choice.
After a few hours of focused time, we decided to go eat her favorite dish at our favorite Indian restaurant, Maharani…..a most delicious dish of okra, veggies and spices. We spoke fondly of Laura and reminisced about all of the things we love about her. We laughed at things she would find funny. We decided that when she comes back we will gather all that love her together and have them share what this has been like for them……to feel such deep love for her……and to sit in that Divine place of bardo where we all get to decide…….what’s next?
We love you, Laura, with all of our hearts.
May you heal completely and come back to us.
This writing came through me as I reflected on the powerful
"Mary Magdalene and the Return of the Divine Feminine" circle that I facilitated this past Sunday. The feedback has been nothing short of a miracle. Women were healing deep wounding around their experiences with the church and organized religion growing up. Everyone shared from their hearts. It felt as though we were a clan of priestesses and sisters gathering together again to pick up where we left off to do our Sacred Work in the world, together. It was so deeply moving, no one wanted to leave!
Even though this writing is for the women in the circle on Sunday, it is relevant for all women, so I decided to share it with you. Perhaps you have been experiencing some of the same things and it can be of service to you at this time.
"Beloveds, I have a message to share with you today.
First, we want to say “Thank you, Thank you” for gathering together in celebration and sacredness on Sunday with Sister Priestess Marcela! We; Mother Mary, Yeshua (Jesus) and I, Mary Magdalene, were with you, among many other Light Beings. We knew it was time for you to gather. We bless you and stand in great gratitude that you have said “YES!” to awakening to and spreading the true message of the Christ Light for which we dedicated our lives too. We honor you and are with you always.
Many of you were being healed on a deep cellular level as you sat in Sacred Circle together. You may be feeling extreme emotions as your DNA is opened and cleared. This must happen for your deep work to be done at this time. Allow yourself to be healed. Live in trust that this is meant to be. Reach out to your healer brothers and sisters and receive support at this time.
YOU ARE NOT MEANT TO DO THIS ALONE!
In fact, it is imperative that you do it TOGETHER. Your wounding happened together, and your healing shall be together too. Allow yourself to be vulnerable and show your emotions together. The time of the quiet woman is over. It is your time to ROAR!
The earth needs you right now. Go to her. Hear her cry. She is your mother. Dance with her. Cry with her. Hear her heartbeat. Awaken this part of you. She needs you as much as you need her. You can’t do this without each other.
Gather in sacred circle outside on the Great Mother. Allow your feet to be bare. Feel her under you- supporting you- loving you. Turn to her for support and strength. Pay attention to the signs of our animal brothers and sisters. They speak for us as well. They want to help you. We are ALL in this together!
There are a few things you need to know as the light awakens within you. Many of you feel the wounding of the life lessons your soul has chosen for you. Know that as The Light awakens in you, these wounds will be revealed to be cleansed and release. This may not always feel so good to you. You may feel anything from deep sadness and grief to shear rage, anger and joy as you awaken to the reality of our collective His-Story. Much deep and profound sadness has happened throughout Our Time as many have died to bring this message to The People. This knowledge is in you. Let it rise to be cleared. You don’t have to be afraid any more.
Please know that YOU ARE SAFE NOW. You live in a time that allows for you to fully express your Divine Nature…..your True Divinity. It is time now to take back these sacred words; Divine…..Divinity….Love….Peace……Church……God……Jesus……Christ……Virgin……Whore…..
Sacred……Sex…….Divine Union……..Sacred Relationship……..now is YOUR TIME. We are here to support you in every moment. Keep exploring. Keep awakening this Divine Knowledge with in you. It is your Divine Right to live as the fully realized Light Being that you are. Find your unique expression and go with it. Live fully as YOU. Follow your intuition no matter what. It may feel strange at first, but know that this is your deepest connection to Us and your True Divine Knowledge.
Allow yourself time to rest as much as you need right now. A lot is happening for you, and our planet, consciously and unconsciously. The Dreamtime is just as important as your waking. Allow your dreams to guide you. Notice the visions and ideas that flow to you now. These are very important. Write them down. These are Sacred Clues on this Divine Journey. Like a big puzzle, clues are revealed in Divine Right Timing but you must be awake and aware to notice.
Call on us as you need. We are here. We will hear. You are never alone.
All our love and Blessings,
© 2013 Marcela Ashburn McBride
Why is it that our self worth is wrapped up in our “doing-ness”. I have been thinking a lot about this today as I woke up feeling poopy and had to take it slow. Thankfully, I work for myself and I had the leisure to do that. Not many people can say that, so for that, I feel very blessed.
So, back to this “doing-ness” thing. I notice that if I rest during the day when everyone else is caught up in their busy-ness, I have a hard time letting that be OK. I do love to have quiet time for myself- to day dream- do as I please once in a awhile. This is the biggest pleasure of our 20’s, I believe. The time when we have few responsibilities- no business, family, husband, kids, schedule to keep up with. All of those things that make a life. This time to reflect is important. It is the creative time when you can let your mind wander into new possibilities. When we are caught up in our "doing-ness" we don't allow ourselves this time. Staying busy is SO last year! It's time to reflect, relax, allow, trust. Winter is perfect for that.
So this year I will be 37……holy crap batman!
This lead me to question, what do I REALLY want for myself? My life? I actually think about this a lot…..perhaps too much. It may be because I ask my clients this all the time……
”What makes you tic?”
“What lights your Divine Fire?”
“Why do you feel you are here one this planet, at this time?”
They are big questions, and I think because I am a Leo and a visionary creative-type I feel that my life is supposed to mean something. That I am here at this time to do something big, to help turn the world “ON” to light our fires, to inspire the Divine Dream that lives inside of us that is there…..for the world.
Yes, this is my purpose….my reason for being. How I manifest it is completely up to me. That is the beauty. The Divine Dance of destiny and free will.
So, Beloved, what is lighting your fire today?
Life is a grand buffet!
What are you choosing?
© 2013 Marcela Ashburn McBride
We are living in a crazy world. Time is speeding up- and slowing down at the same time. Polarities are getting more extreme. There is more war on the planet than ever before- more weaponry- more poverty- more crime- more teenage pregnancy- more drug use (legal and non-legal).....the list goes on. This is what happens when times change- when the way we have been doing things for centuries, shifts.
In the midst of all of this chaos there is beauty. We are moving away from a masculine-driven model of society back to a more feminine, receptive…..from a place of, “I know” to a place of “I am”. From domination, to collaboration; from separation, to unity; from fear, to love; from settling for a life, to creating your life!
Our natural state is JOY, beloved!
All things stem from this. We just forget as we move forward in our lives……getting caught up in what we need to do to survive, we have forgotten what makes us THRIVE!
What makes your heart sing?
What fills you with love and light?
Dancing? Singing? Painting? Drawing? Sculpting?
I imagine it is creative, whatever it is. We are creative beings living in a creative Universe, creating our realities in every moment.
Are you enjoying your creation?
Find your Divine Juice! This is what you need to incorporate every day to keep the Divine Spark alive in you. This is what keeps you grounded and connected in times of chaos. This is the silent, yet joy ~ filled place that the Divine lives in you. Don’t wait for it to be “OK” to make that time everyday. Noone else will give you the permission. You must give YOURSELF the permission. You know you need this. You know it is essential to your survival. If you feel that you don’t know what awakens your Divine Spark, then experiment. Take a class, buy a few art supplies and play. Put on your favorite music and DANCE. Sit down to a blank page and see what comes.
Once awakened, it must be cultivated and fed or that Divine Spark will be put out.
Remember, people who don’t make time for this themselves will try to make you feel silly for doing it.
I am here to tell you IT HAS BECOME AN ESSENTIAL PART OF YOUR SURVIVAL AS A HUMAN SPECIES to awaken this Divine Spark inside of you and cultivate it on a a regular basis. You are a spirit having a human experience; therefore, your Spirit must take precedence now.
The part of you that is creative is also the feminine within you- whether you are a man or a women- it is also the receptive, the part that knows we are all connected and that our lives matter- a lot. There is no accident that you were put on this planet, at this time. Your JOY is meant to be shared with the world. When we awaken that Divine Spark in us, we help humanity to do the same.
As you know…..everything is energy……and you have the power to direct that energy for good.
Find your Spark, Beloved, and Live it!
Now it the time, and you are the one.
All our love~~~
© 2013 Marcela Ashburn McBride
I have been feeling very connected to Mary Magdalene over the past year and feel as though I am meant to channel her knowledge for this critical time in human history. This morning, as I meditated on the meaning of Dec. 21, 2012, these words came to me to share:
Now is the time to fall in love with yourself in deep, forgiving and profound ways. It is time to let go of the old story that you aren’t enough-that you aren’t perfect, whole and complete exactly as you are, right here and right now.
You were made in the image of God! How could you be any less then perfection? Know this now as truth.
There is nowhere to go, nothing to “do”. Who you are “being” in the world is the most profound thing…..are you stressed out and overworked? Do you cuss at others in traffic? Do you snap at your partner?
What is the truth that is wanting to move through you that you aren’t allowing? Perhaps you aren’t living the life you had hoped. Perhaps things haven’t turned out the way you thought they should. Perhaps they could be better than your conscious mind could ever imagine, but you aren’t allowing it. Perhaps the life you have created was created out of being a victim to it. What if you chose something different right here, right now? What if you became aware-blatantly-of your conscious acts on others and how you affect them?
You are worth more than the drama you are living. You are a Divine Expression of God and are capable of creating exactly what you desire for your life!
Know this to be true and be it, Beloved.
What are you waiting for?"
© 2012 Marcela Ashburn McBride
I believe we are in a very critical time in human history.
We are being asked to awaken to our Divinity and innate brilliance with great passion and excitement!
Why, you may ask?
Because, when you become aware of the Divine within you (it’s never gone ;-) then you awaken to the world in a whole new light.
Things start to make since. Your heart opens to love more deeply.
You desire to be of service to our planet and our fellow brothers and sisters in a whole new way……a way that has YOU thrive as much as them. There is no lack here. You don't have to sacrifice yourself so that others may have what they need.
There is enough for us all.
The world needs YOU now and YOUR gifts! We need creative visionaries to awaken and share their truth and knowledge with the world.
You know SO much….it’s hidden inside you, waiting to come out and light up the world!
What is the truth you are meant to share?
Ask and it will be revealed to you…….
You are the ones we have been waiting for!
Open your heart to this and feel it fully.
There is no other time but now.
There is no other place, but here.
Move forward as the LIGHT awakens and know that you are not alone.
We are always with you.
Breathe this in and feel the love we have for you~~~
© 2012 Marcela Ashburn McBride
Do you see that the dreams that live inside of you are for the world?
They are the seeds from which all brilliance is born.
The ideas, visions, dreams that you hold so dear are meant to be shared….revealed….spoken of, and lived!
There is no other time, but now!
No other place, but here!
No other degrees to earn, money to make, perfection to find……
No one else, but you.
We are waiting with breath that is baited to support your dream…..to align all of the perfect people, resources and opportunities that are meant to be a part.
You are one person, yet supported by many.
We hear you.
We love you.
You are no longer alone.
I woke up anxious today not really knowing why.
I finally realized it's because I needed to write ………
To write for you.
To speak my passion through words…….
I write for those that cannot write.
I write for those that are chained and locked in cold, dark dungeons,
whether literally or figuratively.
I write for those that have no voice and don't believe they can speak their
truth in the world.
I write for women who are suffering because they can’t live out loud.
I write for the children born into poverty that may never know anything else.
I write for the animals who don’t speak our language, for if they could they would scream……
“STOP! Stop killing the earth! Stop destroying our homes! Stop hurting each other! Stop raping the earth and all of her natural resources! Feel the cry of the earth, and do something! Wake up! Your home is disappearing, just like ours. We have to work together to do this, or we all perish. Don’t you understand? Please start listening so we can keep living together on this Grande planet.”
The Divine is asking to move through me to awaken the world to our divinity.
To remind us that we're divine beings living this great mystery called life.
There truly is no dress rehearsal.
There isn't another chance.
What are you creating for your life?
Who are you being and what will be your legacy?
© 2012 Marcela Ashburn McBride
We are but clay being fired in the kiln of life!
Are you allowing yourself to be molded into who you are becoming?
That which is far grander then you could ever imagine?
Re~lease the mind…..
Allow it to fall into nothingness…..the fertile ground from which all things grow.
Become the clay, beloved.
© 2012 Marcela Ashburn McBride
I met a man today at a writers group that told me the story of losing his wife of 41 yrs. to ovarian cancer. He said taking care of her at the end of her life was the hardest thing he has ever done. He doesn’t wish that on anyone.
He warned me to make sure I understand the signs and get checked regularly.
He also shared about a 35 yr. old woman that they got to know in the hospital that had the same disease. As he shared this part, I being 35 myself, felt a twinge of fear run through my body.
“Oh, God!” I thought. “She is my age!”
At that moment, my life flashed before my eyes and I thought, “If I only had a short time to live, what would I do differently?”
I ended up sitting with that question the rest of today and pondered it on the front porch this evening with my beloved, John. I shared with him the story.
He asked, “So, what would you do differently?”
The first thing that came to mind was, I have lived an amazing life! I have a fabulous relationship with my beloved. I have 2 perfect kitty cats and a fantastic stepson named Dylan. I have 2 awesome nieces and 4 awesome sisters-in-law. I have beautiful relationships with my mom, dad and brothers, that I have worked hard to create, (despite growing up in alcoholic dysfunction). I love all of my in-laws (yes, it IS true!) I have traveled to fabulous places, living in many for up to 5 months at a time, including backpacking through Europe staying with natives, getting to know the culture firsthand.
I run a business helping women to live in their highest potential. I get to motivate people through my writing and my teachings. I live in a beautiful home, in a great city full of fascinating people. I am 1 ½ hrs. from my mountain home and 3 hrs. from my favorite retreat at the beach. I have explored my spirituality and feel strong in my belief in the Divine that connects us all. I have sailed through the Caribbean and swam with tropical fish.
I have already lived an amazing life!
Do I want to do more?
YES, of course, but what I realized was that I set out to live an intentional life at 18yrs. old when I left home with nothing but a backpack on……full of freedom, curiosity and possibility.
I haven’t looked back. I believe that when we start to awaken to the Divine within us (as I did at that time), we can’t go back asleep. The more we awaken, the more painfully beautiful life becomes. We see it all. We can’t just take the good parts. We have to take it all. I feel the avoidance of the tough parts is what keeps us from going deeper in our lives. There is gold in it all.
Are you living a life of no regrets?
Do you love fearlessly?
Are you fulfilling your deepest heart’s desire?
If not now, when?
What are you waiting for?
Don’t wait for cancer to be the reason you say, “YES!”
© 2012 Marcela Ashburn McBride